Yesterday

Oh my god, so yesterday, "you know" started and I felt terrible. My stomach felt like it was twisting up in knots, so I took some Midol. Only one though, because that stuff is strong. I then ate some Fritos and some spicy cheesy dip that my dad makes a lot so that way I could eat some food and the Midol wouldn't bug me as much. FALSE(lol Dwight from the Office...). I felt even worse. It felt like someone was just standing on my stomach and inner thighs and jumping up and down. It was terrible. I would feel alright for one minute, then extreme pain the next. I was also freaking out because a friend on CR told me a fellow Suju fan died from stomach cancer and my dad was mentioning the swine flu when I said I was feeling sick and nauseous. Soon, the caffeine from the Midol stated to kick in. I do NOT do well with caffeine because it makes me shake like crazy and my whole body just goes nuts D: So with the initial cramps I had, plus the cramps Midol gave me for not eating enough food, and the caffeine all mixed in one was just TOO much. It felt like I was having a panic attack and I was so nauseous.

I kept feeling like I was going to throw up, so I would sit in the bathroom and wait. Nothing would happen except that I would hiccup a lot. Soon after that, my body got into a cold sweat and I was hot and cold at the same time. It was so hot that I wanted to take my clothes off, but I was so cold that I wanted to put more on. My mom kept telling me to relax and find something to eat. I couldn't do either of them so the first thing that popped into my head was that I wanted my dad to make me some oatmeal(the way he makes it is very good and always makes me feel better).

So after awhile, he finally got started on making the oatmeal and I was still in pain. I kept tossing and turning on the sofa; my body was sweating like crazy, but I was extremely cold. I stood up and walked in the kitchen and got some water. After I drank a few sips of water, I suddenly felt really nauseous. I walked to the bathroom and tried to throw up. First, nothing came out, as usual, just some hiccups and then I just kinda tried to gag myself(with out putting my fingers or something else in my mouth. Hard for me to explain...)and eventually, a little bit came out. I felt just a teensy, tiny bit better and I walked back to the kitchen. My dad finished making the oatmeal and set it out on the table. I ate like, one or two bites. I couldn't make it go down my throat. I decided to drink some more water so that I could maybe throw up some more and then I would hopefully feel better. It worked because I then had to go to the bathroom and throw up again. Then, I told my mom what happened again and she asked if I was ok or something like that. I mumbled something and then ran back to the bathroom. This time, a lot came out. Ok, that's totally nasty, but still...

After that, I felt a little bit better and I sat down and tried to eat the oatmeal again. I still couldn't eat it and told my dad that I couldn't. I felt bad for not eating it, but I imagine that he understood that I wasn't feeling well. He then made me some Jello. I hate Jello, but I wanted to eat something. So anyways, I eventually started feeling much better, but I was still uber dizzy whenever I would stand up or move my head. It was very scary and I'm so thankful that I didn't feel that way today :] My stomach feels a little gurgley and slight cramps, but nothing like yesterday at all.

OHHHHH MYYYY GOOODNESSSS!!!!

SUJU M HAS MADE A COMEBACK!! OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!! *sigh* They're new song is super catchy and Hankyung looks sooo cute in this video, I love his nerd look :DDDD I really don't like the fact that they put Jessica from SNSD in the video, only to enhance her shallowness(she turns down Hankyung because he looks dorky and so he changes his look and then, and only then she wants to be with him. TWU WUB!! *gag*) Ok, I guess you could tell that I don't like SNSD, particularly Jessica or Tiffany. Well, as long as they didn't use Tiffany in the video, I guess it's ok XD Yeah, I'm a total Suju fangirl, what can I say?? I love the fact that the say "shyupah" kekekeke x3


So I can watch it whenever I'm on here :DDDD

It's 6 in the flippin' morning. No sleep. First day of school today.

WLEMWLAMALFMDLSFMDSLGMDSGJ!!! Why did I decide to pull an all nighter?!!? OMG I'm so tired, but now it's too late to fall asleep because I have to wake up in less than 45 minutes to get ready for school DDDD: I'm not one who needs just a simple power nap and I'll be good to go. Oh no, I need a full 8+ hours of sleep in order to not feel extremely tired or cranky when I wake up. I don't want to go out of my room because I don't want my parents to know I pulled an all nighter... Oh man, I can't wait to get home from school and fall asleep!! Good thing that it's only the first day of classes, because I would be even more screwed if we really had to focus on lectures or tests... LSDKLSMDLSWDOEFL!!!

Buuuut, my birtday's coming up soon!! I can't wait!! I'm only gonna be 21, but I already feel old... I never really did anything in my life that was meaningful, minus Irish dance. That was pretty much the only thing I ever really did that was interesting. I never participated in any extra curricular activities at school, participate in talent shows, except when I was like, in the 2nd grade. It was the stupidest thing ever. I don't know why I even agreed to dance the macarena to a friggin' BEATLES SONG DDDD: Anyways, I never was in any clubs or went to school dances(in high school, but I did go to 2 at St. Lukes, those don't really count...), I never did anything to stand out and really be myself, I only did things that would make me blend in with others(for the most part). I don't have a job right now and my academic career dropped like a lead balloon... I don't even know what I want to do in the future now. I've been wanting to teach ESL, but I'm not sure if I still want to do that. I just wanted to teach ESL so I could go to Japan or even Korea kekekke XDD I just want to do something different for a change, do something meaningful, but I'm always too afraid of people judging me... Bad thoughts, but I can't help them... :[

Ahh, listening to Super Junior always makes me feel better :] Blargh, I blame Yudi for introducing me to them. Ever since then, I've been obsessed with them!! D: kekekeke :3 More about them later... :O

I'm pretty nervous about my German class, I don't really remember a whole lot from this past year... I'm screwed DX I hope that my other classes go well and that I have decent professors. I also have a new professor for German(I had my other for 2 quarters), so I hope she's nice. I doubt that she'd be as awesome as my other prof. but I just don't want a bitchy teacher... lbgdsfladsflds Whatever...

6:26 right now.... UGH. No more all nighters unless I'm 100% NOT tired. I can't wait to get something to eat, I'm so hungry.

Some dollie pics :D

Ok, long time no update. I feel too lazy to post pics on here. Mostly because my camera makes the pictures ginormous and I hate having to resize them all the time D: I'll just post the pics anyways, I guess :3


A close up of her face :D



Noel with the extra eyes and hair Dollmore gave me as a free gift!! Ignore the messy dresser and the Suju M poster XD



Here she is with my dog, Chi Chi. Chi Chi was(and still is) very scared of her XDDD

Time to talk about my dollie!! :D Part 2

Unfortunately, I had to get a Paypal account, which I didn't have and had no clue what to do. So then I had to make an online bank account in order to make the Paypal account work. Well, I didn't know my account number so after long hours of searching, I found it. I then did all the doohickeys I was supposed to do and final paid for my order. That took about a day or two, which was agonizing because I wanted to pay for her as soon as possible!!

I then had to wait a few weeks when finally they shipped her out. I looked on the tracking every single day and almost every single hour. It took about 2 days for her to be shipped out to the air port in Korea, then about 3 days for her to come to the US, and about a day or so to get to my house. At first, I was really mad because I figured that she would come Monday instead of Friday or Saturday(I thought they would've came by then). But suddenly on Sunday(YES, Sunday!!), a mail truck came and my mom shouted for me and told me the mail man's here. I ran downstairs and saw my dad outside with the mailman and he gave him the package. My doll was here!! I opened the garage door and took my doll from my dad and ran back inside. I set the box on the dining table and I was shaking like crazy!!

Opening everything was very tedious, but worth it because Chami was sooo lovely!! She came with the wig and eyes I requested already on her and some undies. I then put her outfit on her and she looked so cute!! It was hard to handle her at first(and still is) because I felt so clumsy holding her.

At first, my mom called her Saoirse even before I got her, but I didn't really like that name for her so I spent the next few days coming up with a name. I looked at some baby naming sites and tried to find a good name. I then came to the conclusion that I wanted her to have a French sounding name and I really liked the name Noel for her. My sister had a book of French baby names where I found "Elodie." I liked that name as well for her so she's now "Elodie Noel" but I just call her Noel... sometimes Elodie...sometimes both XDD

Anyways, she's just beautiful looking and I love taking pictures of her, especially her face(mostly because I'm not good at coming up with unique poses). I hope to get a few more in the future, but that's if I actually get a JOB!! Not have to resort to....ugh, I don't wanna think about it. I'm gonna have to pay all that back in the not too distant future DDD: Well, I'm happy with her presently, so that's all that matters :3

Pics next post X3

Time to talk about my dollie!! :D Part 1

Well, I haven't done this on my LJ yet, so I figured I'd do it here... To anyone who ever reads this(....anybody??? *sniffle*) Aw, I don't care. Maybe for my future self...?? Ok, so anywho, I need to talk about my lurrrvely BJD.

I've always wanted an ABJD(Asian ball-jointed doll) ever since I saw one on this one girl's website where she made pixel dolls. Ah, I remember those days when that was really big. Ok so anyways, she made some of her base dolls look like Dollfies. I was curious about them so I looked them up online and I instantly fell in love. These dolls were so awesome!! You could actually customize them yourself into pretty much anything you wanted!! You can change their hair, eyes, make-up, paint their nails, give them tattoos, give them piercings, anything!! I wanted one so badly, but they're ridiculously expensive.
So after years of losing interest, then gaining interest in them, over and over again, I told my mom about them. I showed her a website called Dollmore(where I got mine!! :3), and she really liked them too. She asked me all sorts of questions about them and we looked at all sorts of different dolls. So then, I thought it would be a perfect oppurtunity to convince my mom to let me buy one. At first, it didn't work out. She would just smile and nod whenever I mentioned them. After school ended for summer, I told my mom again that I wanted one. She then asked how much they costed and I told her. She said, "Oh, well that's not as bad as I thought," and then told me that I should buy one. I was like, "WHHHAAAT!!?" buuut thinking that of course kekekkeke XD I was afraid to buy her because the only way of paying for her was...oh I don't wanna say it(it's not like THAT sickos!!).
In early July, my mom and dad went to northern OH to visit boring geneology stuff for her birthday when I decided that I was gonna buy a doll!! My mom called for...something...I can't remember, but anyways, before she hung up, I said, "Mom?? I was wondering if I could get a doll..."
*long pause* "Ok, but you do need to think about what you're gonna get. You can't get too much because you don't have enough money...blah blah blah" After many "I know's" and "ok's" I jumped for joy and started to decide on what doll I was going to get. It took forever because I couldn't decide what doll I wanted. So about 10 something at night(my mom called around 2 in the afternoon LOL), I finally decided which doll I wanted: a Youth Dollmore Eve named Chami. So I ordered her and after much decision making, I bought an outfit for her(a cheaper one that only costed...$16 I think.), chose the eyes and hair I wanted her to come in, and sent the order!!

Food mostly XD

OHHHH MY GOODNESS THIS WEATHER IS SOOOOOOO GORGEOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :DDDD "NICE WEATHER!!"- Eunhyuk, my lurrve lmao :3 Oooo, this weather is soo nice, I have to listen to happy music and dance around :D

Ok, so I made the curry that I bought a few days ago and it schmeckt gut(random German FTW!!) The only problem was that I think I cooked the potatoes too long and it left a lot of starchy residue on the rest of the curry, making the texture not really smoothe like I had the last time. I don't know for sure if it was just the curry brand, or if it really was the potatoes, but for now I'm going with the latter. The brand I used was Golden Curry. It wasn't nearly as good as the other brand I had... I can't remember the name, but it started with a "K"... Anyways, the flavor wasn't as strong, which is good for those who aren't used to the curry taste, like everyone in my family. Buuuut, they're all afraid to try it. They never wanna try anything new and different :[ Sehr lecker curry pics:

Just as it finished cooking, ready for me to eat!!



Mmm tasty!! :D
It looked better than the pics, trust me!!

I've been making yachaejeon(Korean vegetable pancake) a lot lately. Mostly it's because I already have the ingredients ready and I'm always trying to perfect my cooking of it. It almost always turns out wrong D: Since my pan is too small, I always stupidly add the whole batter instead of making two, so the middle always turns out to doughy and soft, when it's supposed to be crispy. Oh, and a couple of days ago, I had the most ultimate fail: I guess I must've put too much green onions in the batter, so I poured the whole thing in the pan and when I tried to flip it, it all came apart!! Every single time I tried to flip the stupid thing, it just kept falling apart. Ugh, it was so fail, but it still tasted lecker!! LOL Random German FTW!!! XDDD
Here are some pics of the yachaejeon I made:

This one turned out way too burnt and I forgot to add the salt, so I tried to add some on top. It didn't work. FAIL D: The best part is that it was very crispy, like how I think it should be.

OM NOM NOM NOM!!
It wasn't as cooked as I wanted it to be, mostly in the middle, but the edges were crispy und das schmeckt gut(I probably used the wrong form of das, but I don't care)!!

I'm pretty excited because I don't start school until next Wednesday. At first, I thought the 8th was on a Monday, then I realized that it was on Tuesday. Then today, I told my mom that school started on Tuesday and she was like, "Well, you don't have to starte until Wednesday, remember?? You only have classes on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday." YESS!!! I was soo happy, I can't believe I forgot that(well, actually I can XP) So, yay!! No school until Wednesday!! :DDD Ugh, I have to study hard on my German, I forgot so much it seems like D: