Time for some venting and releasing loads of emotions. Expect a tl;dr.
*sigh* Today has been one awful, emotional roller coaster. Ever since a week or two before my birthday, I've been feeling really depressed.
First off, I really wanted to go to King's Island with my family as a nice treat because nobody but Amy and I have been there. So when I brought it up with my mom, she thought it was a good idea. Turns out she was referring to just Yudi and I going, but considering Yudi is in Argentina at the moment, we couldn't have gone together. And knowing her, she would've been like, "Oh, I don't have enough money...Blah blah blah". I didn't really want to go with her in the first place, because I've already been there with her twice. I thought it would've been a nice day to spend with the family and we could've had a lot of fun. So just for some reason, the thought of us not going there really bummed me out. I had no other plans for my birthday. I didn't want to throw a party because who would I invite?? I don't really have many people I can call my friends here. Which leads me to another point of my depression; friends.
I know it's not a big deal, but it's the thought and wishes that count, but on Facebook, there were hardly any of my so called friends that wished me a happy birthday, even Whitney didn't, which surprised me. I just felt really upset by that, considering I wished so many of them the same and I got nothing in return. Yudi didn't really even seem to care. I've just felt that nobody I know really even cares about me. I mean, I know that sounds emo and all and it's probably not true, but I just can't shake the feeling. I mean, my birthday was nice, but it was the same thing as every year. Every one of my birthdays is spent with my family, which of course, isn't bad, but I want to spend it with friends, which I obviously have none. Yeah, yeah, cry moar and all that, but it's a vent post for me, so I can say what I feel. Not that many will read this, but still.
It came to my attention that night of my birthday that maybe I really need to reconsider my friends. I honestly don't feel any connection with a lot of my acquaintances, mostly because I have nothing in common with them. Yeah, people may say "opposites attract" but I honestly don't feel that it applies in real life, well, at least my life. There are only a few people who have similar interests as me, but I never really talk to them, mostly out of awkwardness. To me, I want friends who actually would want to hang out with me, not make up every excuse in the book to not hang out with me. I want friends who care about my feelings, whether I feel really sad or happy. Comfort me when I'm sad, cheer me on when I'm feeling good about myself. Honestly, Facebook has ruined me. I'm always expecting those things I just mentioned whenever I post a status update about my feelings, but nobody responds. However, when someone like Yudi has her annoying little sob stories, many friends will try to comfort her, including me. But I feel like I get nothing in return from her (or other friends) when similar, if not worse experiences happen to me. I don't want just an "Oh, I'm sorry *sadfaise*" I want my friends to talk to me and try their best to cheer me up, just like I do to them. All I want is the same respect given to me as I give to them.
I want to be around people who I can be myself with, where I don't have to feel like a complete idiot if I told them, "Hey, I like anime, I cosplay, oh, and I also love listening to Kpop" and so on. I've realized this in my Japanese class this quarter. There are many like minded people in that class, who know what I'm talking about and even have similar interests, like anime and cosplay. I don't have to think, "wow, this person's gonna think I'm the biggest dork of all time" because you know what?? They are big dorks, exactly like me. Now I haven't talked to a whole lot of the kids in my class, but I definitely can say I feel very comfortable in that class. It's like a geek haven for me XD No matter how tired I am that day, I always want to stay in that class longer than we're supposed to, just because I really enjoy it. I feel sad when I have to leave and return to my "fake world". Now I know that I can still act myself around other people, but I'm really not like that. I'm not strong enough to fully express myself of others, I'm always trying to stay out of the limelight, so others don't talk smack about me. I've always been sensitive and constantly wondering how others perceive me. I want to stop those feelings, but I honestly don't think I can let go fully. But believe me, I've been a lot more open with myself lately than I have been in the past, and it has made me feel better. I still get those feelings back, but they're certainly not as strong as they used to be. Little by little, I'm trying to get out of that bubble.
Overall, I just want to be with people where I'm not afraid to be myself. I'm sick of trying to hide everything, yet I'm still afraid of what people will think.
I've been trying to get over my ridiculous crush on Larry, which every time I interact with him now, reasserts my need to get over him. I've been trying to talk to him online, but I'm not much of a chatter, and he doesn't really ask me anything at all, I suppose that should've been a sign that he wasn't interested in talking to me. The past few times I chatted with him, I regretted it, just because it was awkward and I tried to force conversation, but he just wouldn't respond to me the way he used to. I should've given up then, but I didn't. I still wanted to see him and hang out with him. So this past Saturday was the final straw. I go to the mall where he works at with my sister, eager to say hi and chat with him a bit. So I finally get a chance to, but it was kinda awkward, which upset me. I always have things I want to say in my head, but they just never get to come out. So anyways, I was about to try to actually talk to him when this girl who also works somewhere in the mall walks up to him, talking about how she's "upset" that he didn't text her or whatever. So then he begins talking to her, and he kinda apologizes to me and so does the girl, but it wasn't very sincere, and they continued their conversation. My sister was just like, let's go, and began to walk away, but stupid me didn't want to leave just yet. "Maybe wait a little longer." Pfft. So as I turned around he asked if I was leaving, and I kinda joked, "probably, unless you want me to stay...". He looked to the side, like he didn't really want me to, so I was just like, whatever and left. I mean, what gets me is that this girl comes up to us, totally interrupting our conversation, so then I'm stuck talking to his coworker, which we were both awkward and I just laughed and said she didn't have to talk to me and that it wasn't a big deal. I think she got the idea that I was upset, and kinda joked around with me about Larry being a "bad friend". I was hoping he would come on Facebook and apologize, just saying something like, "hey, sorry about what happened, I didn't mean to blow you off like that," or something to that effect, but of course, nothing. Knowing guys, he probably didn't realize that hey, maybe this really did bother me. I dunno. But it finally got to my head that maybe it's time I gave up on him and moved on, but it makes me feel like an idiot for liking him so much before. We used to joke around easily and I always liked hanging around him because I thought he was fun, but lately he's changed. I guess it's just because he's grown up more and is focusing more on his major, and I've grown up too. But whatever. I'm still kinda upset about what happened, but more upset at myself for being such an idiot trying to talk to him and stuff, when he probably wasn't interested in me in the first place.
But enough about him. I just want to get over him so I don't have to deal with this crap any longer.
Another BIG thing that has been stressing me out is money. I'm almost $100 in debt. I mean, it's my fault for being so frivolous with my money, but I'm really worried about what I have to do. Every few days, I think that Paypal is taking $20 that I owe them out of my bank account. I thought I had enough to buy what I needed, but apparently I didn't. My dad's really upset because I keep spending my money left and right. I don't know what I'm going to do, I don't want my parents to pay up the $20 and all that other money I have to pay, but I really don't have a choice. I don't want them to buy everything for me like they always do... I don't know, but this whole situation has been stressing me out all evening. I really want to be a much better person than I am. I want to be a more studious and good student, I want to have a job, my driver's license, some money so I can pay all this crap off, but I'm afraid because I don't know where to start. I really can't motivate myself. I feel like such a child because I need my parents to tell me what to do all the time instead of doing it on my own. I try to motivate myself, but I never get anything done. Lists and goals just don't seem to work for me. I can't get myself to push myself further so I can be more successful and happy with my life. I feel like I'm still a kid, but the sad thing is, is that I don't want to grow up. I just can't get myself to face reality because I don't want to. I really wish I could just do everything that I mentioned, but I don't know how. I don't know if depression is what's setting me back or what, but I don't want to be like this for the rest of my life.
All these things I've mentioned have been eating me up inside these past weeks. I've cried so many times, and because I found out about my money problems today, I cried even harder. So many emotions and feelings have been building up, that I cried so hard, and I felt like I couldn't stop. I had to try so hard not to breakdown crying in front of my mom and my sister. I know I should tell her what's bothering me, but I don't want her to get upset with me about my money problems. She's certainly not the type that would be, "oh it's ok, don't worry. We'll work things out. I'll help you." No, everything's my fault, which in this case, I know it is, but I would still like some support. Maybe I'm just a baby about that... I love my mom and we've been getting along better, but there are still things that I can't talk to her about without her making me feel even worse. She's not always the most compassionate person. And since my dad knows about the money issue, he's been upset, constantly asking me what I'm going to do. Getting a job would be an easy option, but then my social anxieties aren't helping with that. I suppose one of the best things I could do would be going to a therapist. I just feel like I'd spend the whole time crying *shrugs*
So yeah, story of my life right now. I'm just praying (even though I'm not really religious at all) that everything gets better. I really just don't know what to do anymore. I want to work on myself, but I feel like I don't know how...
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Feeling like...tired... :\
Ahh feeling drugged up. When I feel like that, I feel sleepy -_- I took some Pamprin to help with my crampy stomach. I've been having cramps for almost 2 hours, it just happened so suddenly D: I also felt so tired this morning, I wasn't very excited for my Japanese class (which I usually come into that class feeling happy and excited), and I just wanted to go home and sleep some more. I didn't sleep well last night... too many weird dreams and songs in my head D: Anyways, I wasn't feeling crampy until after my geology lab (which sucks major butt). I figured I should eat something to make it go away, but it didn't help much... I called mutti to come and drop off some essentials, including Pamprin. That stuff is the only stuff that really helps with my cramps, because my body can't handle Midol. Any type of medicine with caffeine in it is bad news for me ;A;
Sitting in geology class and not paying attention to it at all. I'm really not interested in this class, but I need an easy science class. Before the first day of school, I looked up my professor to see what his ratings were, and some chick wrote that he was very attractive looking. I think she must've been confused, because he's really not that good looking... I mean he's not ugly, but he's not good looking enough to be distracted from notes... Blah, talking about earthquakes. Well, it's not too bad, but I really don't feel like paying attention.
Oh great, 2 douchey guys came in, I imagine they're going to be talking throughout the whole class. They smell sweaty. Not that I should blame them because I've been sweating all day. It's way too hot outside. My Japanese class was really warm and I kept sweating DX Luckily my sweat's not stinky XD
I feel like sleeping... I can't wait for my cramps to go away, but I'm just glad that I don't have to deal with it on my birthday, like I had to the past 2 years. My birthday's going to be this Saturday, but I have a feeling it's gonna be pretty boring. ;_;
I can't think straight right now...
Sitting in geology class and not paying attention to it at all. I'm really not interested in this class, but I need an easy science class. Before the first day of school, I looked up my professor to see what his ratings were, and some chick wrote that he was very attractive looking. I think she must've been confused, because he's really not that good looking... I mean he's not ugly, but he's not good looking enough to be distracted from notes... Blah, talking about earthquakes. Well, it's not too bad, but I really don't feel like paying attention.
Oh great, 2 douchey guys came in, I imagine they're going to be talking throughout the whole class. They smell sweaty. Not that I should blame them because I've been sweating all day. It's way too hot outside. My Japanese class was really warm and I kept sweating DX Luckily my sweat's not stinky XD
I feel like sleeping... I can't wait for my cramps to go away, but I'm just glad that I don't have to deal with it on my birthday, like I had to the past 2 years. My birthday's going to be this Saturday, but I have a feeling it's gonna be pretty boring. ;_;
I can't think straight right now...
Friday, September 17, 2010
Blogging Again!!
So in the spirit of utter boredom, I decided to update my blog again. I have to be at school ALL DAY, so I figured I should update my blog, just to give me something to do.
If I started with everything that has happened since I last posted, it would be a NOVEL. So yeah, I'm not gonna XP
Yeah, so that's it. Not much of a post, but I may be posting on Tuesdays/Thursdays.
Toodles!! ^^
If I started with everything that has happened since I last posted, it would be a NOVEL. So yeah, I'm not gonna XP
Yeah, so that's it. Not much of a post, but I may be posting on Tuesdays/Thursdays.
Toodles!! ^^
Monday, April 19, 2010
This paper's coming along just fine
Sarcasm. Sarcasm.
I have to write a paper for my English class, it's really simple: just a 500-700 word argument on whatever we want to write about. Ugh, why is the easy stuff just so hard to do!? I came up with a topic and although I'm almost done with it, I just can't seem to finish it. I don't really even like what I'm writing anyway... It's about texting and how dumb it is, but I just don't like how I wrote it.
In other non-school related news: Last month I bought Ace Attorney Investigations- Miles Edgeworth. I finished it in about a week and a half. It was pretty good and I was pleasantly surprised. I love the Ace Attorney series, but I don't really care for Edgeworth- who is a prosecutor- the main character's rival. But although I still don't care for Edgeworth too much, I liked his character in the game. A lot of the new characters were interesting and fun, especially my two new favorites Shi-Long Lang and his assistant Shih-na. This game had quite a few surprises that were well...quite surprising!! I would talk about them in more detail, but that would take up too much space and time... The only thing I didn't care for is that it was too easy. I usually have to spend forever thinking up the correct answers in the past AA games, which would then resort to just finding the answer online, but I only had to look up the answers once or twice and other times were to just confirm a hunch I had- which to me, is too easy.
Yay!! :D
Umm, what else...?? I've been really wanting to go to some more conventions, there are quite a few near where I live. There were two last month, both an hour away from me, but nobody could go with me ;_; My sisters both had work, and so did all my other friends. Jessica "conveniently" had to work and then go to a dance performance on the day of the other convention. I just don't understand...Why would she not want to go to an anime convention when she friggin' likes anime and Japanese stuff?! I told her everything that happened at Ohayocon and she kept saying that she wished she could go, but everytime I invite her, she just says no.
Whatever. Anyways, I would like to go to a lot more cons and there are a lot of people I really want to cosplay as. Such as older Ema Skye from the Ace Attorney series (well, Apollo Justice), Shih-na (AAI), Hatsune Miku (Vocaloid), and Megurine Luka (also from Vocaloid). *SIGH*
Thinking about buying a new outfit for Ellie. Just something that's kind of cheap from Dollmore. It's a pink mini dress with a matching lolita style headband, a pair of bloomers, and knee-high socks. I would really like to get her a blonde wig because she looks really cute with them on some of the pictures on Dollmore. On Saturday, I took some pics of her and my Jessica's doll, Liebe, and I stole the blonde wig Jessica bought. She doesn't want me to use it because she's afraid that it'll get tangled up, but I used it anyway, just to see how Ellie looked in it. She looked pretty cute!! :]
Ellie with blonde hair :] I didn't get to touch up the picture yet :\
Jessica's doll, Liebe. I touched up the picture...well, tried.
Oh, I think I forgot to mention that I changed Noel's name to Ellie. I don't know how long this name will last, but I prefer it to Elodie Noel or just Noel. She's too cute and happy to have a drawl name. Not that I don't like the other two names, I just think Ellie is cute for her...for now XD
I'm thinking about selling some old stuff I don't want anymore... I'm having a hard time deciding what I want to sell... Of course, it doesn't help that I'm at school XD Well, I should go now. Enough random blabbering...
I have to write a paper for my English class, it's really simple: just a 500-700 word argument on whatever we want to write about. Ugh, why is the easy stuff just so hard to do!? I came up with a topic and although I'm almost done with it, I just can't seem to finish it. I don't really even like what I'm writing anyway... It's about texting and how dumb it is, but I just don't like how I wrote it.
In other non-school related news: Last month I bought Ace Attorney Investigations- Miles Edgeworth. I finished it in about a week and a half. It was pretty good and I was pleasantly surprised. I love the Ace Attorney series, but I don't really care for Edgeworth- who is a prosecutor- the main character's rival. But although I still don't care for Edgeworth too much, I liked his character in the game. A lot of the new characters were interesting and fun, especially my two new favorites Shi-Long Lang and his assistant Shih-na. This game had quite a few surprises that were well...quite surprising!! I would talk about them in more detail, but that would take up too much space and time... The only thing I didn't care for is that it was too easy. I usually have to spend forever thinking up the correct answers in the past AA games, which would then resort to just finding the answer online, but I only had to look up the answers once or twice and other times were to just confirm a hunch I had- which to me, is too easy.
Yay!! :D
Umm, what else...?? I've been really wanting to go to some more conventions, there are quite a few near where I live. There were two last month, both an hour away from me, but nobody could go with me ;_; My sisters both had work, and so did all my other friends. Jessica "conveniently" had to work and then go to a dance performance on the day of the other convention. I just don't understand...Why would she not want to go to an anime convention when she friggin' likes anime and Japanese stuff?! I told her everything that happened at Ohayocon and she kept saying that she wished she could go, but everytime I invite her, she just says no.
Whatever. Anyways, I would like to go to a lot more cons and there are a lot of people I really want to cosplay as. Such as older Ema Skye from the Ace Attorney series (well, Apollo Justice), Shih-na (AAI), Hatsune Miku (Vocaloid), and Megurine Luka (also from Vocaloid). *SIGH*
Thinking about buying a new outfit for Ellie. Just something that's kind of cheap from Dollmore. It's a pink mini dress with a matching lolita style headband, a pair of bloomers, and knee-high socks. I would really like to get her a blonde wig because she looks really cute with them on some of the pictures on Dollmore. On Saturday, I took some pics of her and my Jessica's doll, Liebe, and I stole the blonde wig Jessica bought. She doesn't want me to use it because she's afraid that it'll get tangled up, but I used it anyway, just to see how Ellie looked in it. She looked pretty cute!! :]
Ellie with blonde hair :] I didn't get to touch up the picture yet :\
Jessica's doll, Liebe. I touched up the picture...well, tried.
Oh, I think I forgot to mention that I changed Noel's name to Ellie. I don't know how long this name will last, but I prefer it to Elodie Noel or just Noel. She's too cute and happy to have a drawl name. Not that I don't like the other two names, I just think Ellie is cute for her...for now XD
I'm thinking about selling some old stuff I don't want anymore... I'm having a hard time deciding what I want to sell... Of course, it doesn't help that I'm at school XD Well, I should go now. Enough random blabbering...
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
New post since how long...??
Yeah, it's been awhile. Spring is here, but it's been feeling like summer these past few weeks... Ohayocon is way done and over with, along with two other cons that were right near where I live D: It was fun, although I lost one of my circle lenses two days before the con ;_; I never got to wear them both, just one *sobs*
Spring quarter started 3 weeks ago. I'm taking Ger 203, and in that class, you have to write papers in German. I'm not confident in my grammar at all, so I'm pretty nervous about all that, but my instructor is usually lenient when it comes to writing, which makes me feel a bit better. But still. After this, there are only conversation and composition classes. I'm also taking Bio, Eng, and Rel. Bio is boring beyond reason, mostly because it's too long and while I don't mind my professor, she just drags things out too much, she goes on and on about certain topics. Also, waking up early for 8:30 lab sucks. I hate waking up early...
So yeah, that's about it right now. Too tired to post much of anything else. More later :D
Spring quarter started 3 weeks ago. I'm taking Ger 203, and in that class, you have to write papers in German. I'm not confident in my grammar at all, so I'm pretty nervous about all that, but my instructor is usually lenient when it comes to writing, which makes me feel a bit better. But still. After this, there are only conversation and composition classes. I'm also taking Bio, Eng, and Rel. Bio is boring beyond reason, mostly because it's too long and while I don't mind my professor, she just drags things out too much, she goes on and on about certain topics. Also, waking up early for 8:30 lab sucks. I hate waking up early...
So yeah, that's about it right now. Too tired to post much of anything else. More later :D
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Deco-den!!
Deco-den is awesome!! I love all the tacky, but cute things people put on their cell phones, Nintendo DS', Ipods, etc!! It looks like so much fun!! I really wanna try it and spruce up some of my more dated electronics such as my DS, Ipod, cell phone, camera. They're all pretty old (well, except my camera), so I don't mind getting clue and other cute crap all over it anymore. I found this one website which sells a bunch of the deco-den things such as rhinestones, pearls, jeweled pieces, etc. So much awesome stuff at a really low price!! I really, really want to but a buncha stuff from them!! I was about to, but for EMS shipping, it's $20, which brought the total to about $42. WTH!? I could go with the $5 shipping, but it'll take longer. I don't mind as much as I did; I can wait :]
For my DS, I have a pink DSLite, so I want it to have peachy/pink and creamy white pearls, pink and silver rhinestones, and other pieces such as a jeweled pink heart, flowers, etc. For my camera, I found some really cute little strawberry plastic pieces, so I wanna use those as well as some pink and silver rhinestones. Maybe green ones as well, but I'm still debating on it. As for my Ipod, I want aqua and silver rhinestones, maybe some white pearls, and a Hello Kitty piece. I might want a hot pink color with it as well. I think it would look nice with the blue Ipod, and it would match Hello Kitty's bow (the one on the website has a pink bow). I don't know what I'd want for my phone, it's an ugly orange color, but all I know is that something has to be done to it because I hate it. I tried adding a Paul Frank and a Spongebob sticker to kinda make it more personalized, but it doesn't totally work DX
Speaking of deco-den, I've really been getting into Japanese gyaru nails. They're the most gaudiest things known to mankind, but they're really cute and fun at the same time. See, that's the thing with this kinda stuff: it's so tacky and gross, but it works all at the same time. They're stylish enough that people forget how gnarly they are. At least that's how it is for me!! I've really been wanting to make some of my own gyaru nails and to my luck, the exact same website that sells the deco-den stuff sells nail art things as well!! The owner also makes her own nails, a lot of them are really cute :3 But yeah, I just wanna try them out, just to see what it's like!! I definitely wouldn't wear them to school because they'd have a higher chance of falling off, but I'd love to try wearing them out and about!! Some are WAY too gaudy for my tastes, but something a little simpler would be great!! Maybe just add some flowers, a couple of pearls and rhinestones would be good. Also some bows would be cute :D
I just hope that I can get some deco-den stuff someday soon!! I'd love to try it out!! :D
For my DS, I have a pink DSLite, so I want it to have peachy/pink and creamy white pearls, pink and silver rhinestones, and other pieces such as a jeweled pink heart, flowers, etc. For my camera, I found some really cute little strawberry plastic pieces, so I wanna use those as well as some pink and silver rhinestones. Maybe green ones as well, but I'm still debating on it. As for my Ipod, I want aqua and silver rhinestones, maybe some white pearls, and a Hello Kitty piece. I might want a hot pink color with it as well. I think it would look nice with the blue Ipod, and it would match Hello Kitty's bow (the one on the website has a pink bow). I don't know what I'd want for my phone, it's an ugly orange color, but all I know is that something has to be done to it because I hate it. I tried adding a Paul Frank and a Spongebob sticker to kinda make it more personalized, but it doesn't totally work DX
Speaking of deco-den, I've really been getting into Japanese gyaru nails. They're the most gaudiest things known to mankind, but they're really cute and fun at the same time. See, that's the thing with this kinda stuff: it's so tacky and gross, but it works all at the same time. They're stylish enough that people forget how gnarly they are. At least that's how it is for me!! I've really been wanting to make some of my own gyaru nails and to my luck, the exact same website that sells the deco-den stuff sells nail art things as well!! The owner also makes her own nails, a lot of them are really cute :3 But yeah, I just wanna try them out, just to see what it's like!! I definitely wouldn't wear them to school because they'd have a higher chance of falling off, but I'd love to try wearing them out and about!! Some are WAY too gaudy for my tastes, but something a little simpler would be great!! Maybe just add some flowers, a couple of pearls and rhinestones would be good. Also some bows would be cute :D
I just hope that I can get some deco-den stuff someday soon!! I'd love to try it out!! :D
Friday, January 15, 2010
Looking cute with wigs!!
So, this past...year to a year 1/2(...??) I've been really, REALLY interested in ANYTHING that's Asian cute(more than I ever have), such as Sanrio(well, I've liked Sanrio ever since I was in 3rd or 4th grade...), San-X(Rilakkuma, Mamegoma, etc.), as well as looking cutesy in pics, or trends such as circle lenses, deco-den, etc. Now, another interest of mine involving Asian-y cuteness is....WIGS!! I got into them a little bit a few months ago, and the interest resurfaced, so now I'm really considering on buying one!! I don't know which one to buy because they're all so darn cute!!
Now I know people in the US think that wearing a wig for fashion purposes is beyond weird(wigs are usually associated with premature hair loss or some kind of serious disease), but I like them!! I have the worst hair: thin and FLAT. I can't style my hair if my life depended on it because I don't have the time and I especially don't have the patience for it(and I'm a pretty patient person for the most part), so my daily school hairstyle is usually(and I mean ALMOST ALWAYS) just straightened, no volume or anything. It's so...BLAH. I hate it because I might have a cute outfit on and my make looks great, but my hair is just so dull. I don't really have any layers in my hair and it's growing longer, meaning it's emphasizing the boringness of it all. I know that I could go get it cut, but I don't know what style I want and I'm not really keen on going to hairstylists....I don't really know why...
I'm not sure whether or not I'd wear a wig to school, unless it matched my hair color, but I would definitely wear them out(the same goes for circle lenses: I won't wear them to school, but I'd wear them out or for pics)!! Whether I'm going shopping, partying(which I don't do a whole lot of... DX), or clubbing(which I haven't done in a long time), I would totally wear a wig. Mostly because if I wore a wig a different color or length than my natural hair at school, everyone in my classes(smaller classes at least) would know and it would just be too obvious. But wearing them out while shopping or whatever, you're probably never going to see those people ever again, so it doesn't matter.
Today, I've been looking through some different wig sites, most of them are Korean, at least right now, and I'm seriously drooling over how super CUTE these wigs look!! Of course, the models are mega adorable too!! I just wish these sites would have services in English as well. I'm sure there are plenty of Westerners(like me!!) who would really want to buy one. Well...I guess I should look at some Western sites for similar styles, but they're more expensive. I just found a site that sells Korean wigs for English speakers and the wigs are $50 each. DDDD: Well, they said on the page that most wigs like the ones they sell are over $100, so I guess it's a pretty good deal...
Anyways, here are some of my faves:
Gabal Story:
From Pinkage:
OOOO SOOO CUTE!! I really want some wigs!! 8D
Now I know people in the US think that wearing a wig for fashion purposes is beyond weird(wigs are usually associated with premature hair loss or some kind of serious disease), but I like them!! I have the worst hair: thin and FLAT. I can't style my hair if my life depended on it because I don't have the time and I especially don't have the patience for it(and I'm a pretty patient person for the most part), so my daily school hairstyle is usually(and I mean ALMOST ALWAYS) just straightened, no volume or anything. It's so...BLAH. I hate it because I might have a cute outfit on and my make looks great, but my hair is just so dull. I don't really have any layers in my hair and it's growing longer, meaning it's emphasizing the boringness of it all. I know that I could go get it cut, but I don't know what style I want and I'm not really keen on going to hairstylists....I don't really know why...
I'm not sure whether or not I'd wear a wig to school, unless it matched my hair color, but I would definitely wear them out(the same goes for circle lenses: I won't wear them to school, but I'd wear them out or for pics)!! Whether I'm going shopping, partying(which I don't do a whole lot of... DX), or clubbing(which I haven't done in a long time), I would totally wear a wig. Mostly because if I wore a wig a different color or length than my natural hair at school, everyone in my classes(smaller classes at least) would know and it would just be too obvious. But wearing them out while shopping or whatever, you're probably never going to see those people ever again, so it doesn't matter.
Today, I've been looking through some different wig sites, most of them are Korean, at least right now, and I'm seriously drooling over how super CUTE these wigs look!! Of course, the models are mega adorable too!! I just wish these sites would have services in English as well. I'm sure there are plenty of Westerners(like me!!) who would really want to buy one. Well...I guess I should look at some Western sites for similar styles, but they're more expensive. I just found a site that sells Korean wigs for English speakers and the wigs are $50 each. DDDD: Well, they said on the page that most wigs like the ones they sell are over $100, so I guess it's a pretty good deal...
Anyways, here are some of my faves:
Gabal Story:
From Pinkage:
OOOO SOOO CUTE!! I really want some wigs!! 8D
Thursday, January 14, 2010
I LIIIIIVE!!
Wow, so I haven't posted here in awhile... Quite a few things happened over the past few months: I passed all my fall classes except for my stupid regional studies class, my break was really long and mostly uneventful, my mom and my sister got into a huge fight. It was really scary; my period last month was so bad, I threw up twice and I started to convulse from the pain and from having a panic attack at the same time; Christmas was pretty fun, we got a Wii!!!!!!! That thing is so addicting and fun!!
I got a lot of cute things for Christmas: a Rilakkuma calendar, a pouch(I keep some of my make-up in there), and a cute folder my mom bought just because; two pairs of Hello Kitty socks, slippers; and, this is the best, a Hello Kitty HAT!! It's so cute!! It's shaped like HK's face. I need to post some pics!! I got some things for Noel: a skirt, a bunny shirt, matching socks, two wigs, a pair of eyes, and a "circus" outfit (not really, but they call it "Bon bon Circus Set" on Dollmore...) and they all look great on her (of course!! x3).
Also, I got another Super Junior poster and the Super Junior Super Show dvd, which I was very, very excited about!! I watched it with my mom and she was beyond freaked out by it. In between each song they performed, they would put in these random, stupid little shorts that ranged from weird animations to riding roller coasters to have a "showdown" by shooting food at each other. Not to mention the fanservice freaked her out too, where the boys would do little "gay" things to each other to please all the yaoi fan girls... I just laugh at those because I know they're not serious... Other than the weird fillers, the DVD was really enjoyable, it had them perform some of my favorite songs(although, they don't have any from their 3rd album because it was filmed before that...) as well as some of the members sang solos or sang with one or two other members, or one would sing while another accompanied them on piano. Those songs were lovely and Donghae's song, which was dedicated to his late father, brought tears to my eyes ;_;
On New Year's Eve, I thought I was going to die of boredom, but luckily, Yudi called me and asked if I wanted to go to this "mini party". I of course said yes!! We(along with our friends Cassandra and Kristin) went to her bf's friend's apartment and had some drinks(I had a bit too much XD) and played Apples to Apples while watching Time Square on her bf's lappy. At midnight, we all drank some champagne and toasted the New Year!! We also played Scattegories, which is not easy while intoxicated DX
Theeeeennn school reared it's ugly head last week. I'm taking Classics, German 202, and a math class for dummies. I hate that class with a passion. It's so time consuming because you can't move forward on anything until "proctors" come and check off your work. It has to be 100% correct before you move on. While it is a good idea to get the basics down, it's just too dang long.
A couple of days ago, a friend of mine, whom I met in my drawing class a few years back and we have a lot in common, finally texted me after so long. Anyways, she asked me if I wanted to go to Ohayocon with her and of course, I said YES!! I'm sooo excited!! I've never been to an anime con or any con in my life, so this should be a new experience. Yes, I am indeed going to dress up!! I just ordered my costume online, and I'm going to be Haruhi from the Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya. While it's not my *favorite* series(mostly because it can get so darn confusing), I love Haruhi's character: she's outspoken, odd, and doesn't give a rat's ass about what others think of her. She'll do almost anything to get some excitement in her life because she's bored with humans, so she sets up a club to look for time travlers, espers, and aliens(which are all under her nose, but she has no idea). Here's a pic!!
If any anime fan has NOT heard of her, I just... don't have any words...
In addition to the costume I ordered, I also ordered some brown circle lenses to make my eyes look more anime like. I don't know how good they'll look on me considering I have hazel eyes(the pupils in the lenses are very large, so the natural eye color shows through when looked at up close). I'm very excited and I'm PRAYING that they get here before the convention!! I'm also going to die my hair a darker brown and cut it a bit. I was going to buy a wig, but it was 27 bucks, plus 15 dollars in shipping and I'm not willing to fork out too much cash on this, I already spent enough on it.
Ok, enough rambling...
PICSPAM!!! 8D
My new Hello Kitty hat!! 8D
Rilakkuma pouch!! So soft :3
Here's what the inside looks like.
One of Noel's new outfits.
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I tied the ears up in a knot. I just copied the idea from the Dollmore pics. They look so cute!! ^^ Oh, and she's also wearing her new blue eyes!!
Here she is with her new pink wig. I got it before her black one and her wine colored one. I love that bow in the circus set :3
New wine colored wig. I really like these pale blue eyes that I got awhile back on her. They look great with all of her wigs and clothes. Not too dark(since they're acrylic), not too light.
I got a lot of cute things for Christmas: a Rilakkuma calendar, a pouch(I keep some of my make-up in there), and a cute folder my mom bought just because; two pairs of Hello Kitty socks, slippers; and, this is the best, a Hello Kitty HAT!! It's so cute!! It's shaped like HK's face. I need to post some pics!! I got some things for Noel: a skirt, a bunny shirt, matching socks, two wigs, a pair of eyes, and a "circus" outfit (not really, but they call it "Bon bon Circus Set" on Dollmore...) and they all look great on her (of course!! x3).
Also, I got another Super Junior poster and the Super Junior Super Show dvd, which I was very, very excited about!! I watched it with my mom and she was beyond freaked out by it. In between each song they performed, they would put in these random, stupid little shorts that ranged from weird animations to riding roller coasters to have a "showdown" by shooting food at each other. Not to mention the fanservice freaked her out too, where the boys would do little "gay" things to each other to please all the yaoi fan girls... I just laugh at those because I know they're not serious... Other than the weird fillers, the DVD was really enjoyable, it had them perform some of my favorite songs(although, they don't have any from their 3rd album because it was filmed before that...) as well as some of the members sang solos or sang with one or two other members, or one would sing while another accompanied them on piano. Those songs were lovely and Donghae's song, which was dedicated to his late father, brought tears to my eyes ;_;
On New Year's Eve, I thought I was going to die of boredom, but luckily, Yudi called me and asked if I wanted to go to this "mini party". I of course said yes!! We(along with our friends Cassandra and Kristin) went to her bf's friend's apartment and had some drinks(I had a bit too much XD) and played Apples to Apples while watching Time Square on her bf's lappy. At midnight, we all drank some champagne and toasted the New Year!! We also played Scattegories, which is not easy while intoxicated DX
Theeeeennn school reared it's ugly head last week. I'm taking Classics, German 202, and a math class for dummies. I hate that class with a passion. It's so time consuming because you can't move forward on anything until "proctors" come and check off your work. It has to be 100% correct before you move on. While it is a good idea to get the basics down, it's just too dang long.
A couple of days ago, a friend of mine, whom I met in my drawing class a few years back and we have a lot in common, finally texted me after so long. Anyways, she asked me if I wanted to go to Ohayocon with her and of course, I said YES!! I'm sooo excited!! I've never been to an anime con or any con in my life, so this should be a new experience. Yes, I am indeed going to dress up!! I just ordered my costume online, and I'm going to be Haruhi from the Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya. While it's not my *favorite* series(mostly because it can get so darn confusing), I love Haruhi's character: she's outspoken, odd, and doesn't give a rat's ass about what others think of her. She'll do almost anything to get some excitement in her life because she's bored with humans, so she sets up a club to look for time travlers, espers, and aliens(which are all under her nose, but she has no idea). Here's a pic!!
If any anime fan has NOT heard of her, I just... don't have any words...
In addition to the costume I ordered, I also ordered some brown circle lenses to make my eyes look more anime like. I don't know how good they'll look on me considering I have hazel eyes(the pupils in the lenses are very large, so the natural eye color shows through when looked at up close). I'm very excited and I'm PRAYING that they get here before the convention!! I'm also going to die my hair a darker brown and cut it a bit. I was going to buy a wig, but it was 27 bucks, plus 15 dollars in shipping and I'm not willing to fork out too much cash on this, I already spent enough on it.
Ok, enough rambling...
PICSPAM!!! 8D
My new Hello Kitty hat!! 8D
Rilakkuma pouch!! So soft :3
Here's what the inside looks like.
One of Noel's new outfits.
\I tied the ears up in a knot. I just copied the idea from the Dollmore pics. They look so cute!! ^^ Oh, and she's also wearing her new blue eyes!!
Here she is with her new pink wig. I got it before her black one and her wine colored one. I love that bow in the circus set :3
New wine colored wig. I really like these pale blue eyes that I got awhile back on her. They look great with all of her wigs and clothes. Not too dark(since they're acrylic), not too light.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Random things...
Ok, so I haven't posted anything in awhile, not that anybody's reading this to care!! Anyways, so I went to Half Price Books a few days ago... I think it was Saturday, when, yet again, I found some really awesome stuff!! I found 2 Sailor Moon anime manga(they were just comics based entirely from the S.M episodes) in the original Japanese for only $4.98!! Not bad considering the regular price tag(from wherever this person bought it from), which was $10.98 each!! I also found a random issue of Nakayoshi- a Japanese magazine aimed towards young girls that is literally chock full of manga stories(and I thought Shoujo Beat was thick!!) They used to have S.M in there back when it first came out. But anyways, this was from 2008...May...I think?? I haven't had a chance to really look through it all, but I'm just still wigging out on all my super awesome, totally random finds!! 8D
So school's almost out, just three more exams and then I'm done for the friggin' quarter!! I was sooo excited that I got an A+ on my cultural narrative paper I had to write for English!! I wrote it on Irish dance and how annoying it is to have I.D be compared to Riverdance and other things. The comment that he wrote on my paper made me blush SOOO much!! It was just basically saying that the paper was well organized, interesting, and that I did a really good job writing it and stuff like that. 8DDDDD Ooooh, I can't help but blush like crazy whenever he talks to me, even write nice comments on my papers!! XD Oh and when he tries to talk to me in German...XD Very cute!! Ok, enough about my lil' schoolgirl crush kekeke!!
I was thinking on writing some more about school, but I'll do it later, when I'm not pulling an all nighter and can hardly see the keys on my keyboard.
So school's almost out, just three more exams and then I'm done for the friggin' quarter!! I was sooo excited that I got an A+ on my cultural narrative paper I had to write for English!! I wrote it on Irish dance and how annoying it is to have I.D be compared to Riverdance and other things. The comment that he wrote on my paper made me blush SOOO much!! It was just basically saying that the paper was well organized, interesting, and that I did a really good job writing it and stuff like that. 8DDDDD Ooooh, I can't help but blush like crazy whenever he talks to me, even write nice comments on my papers!! XD Oh and when he tries to talk to me in German...XD Very cute!! Ok, enough about my lil' schoolgirl crush kekeke!!
I was thinking on writing some more about school, but I'll do it later, when I'm not pulling an all nighter and can hardly see the keys on my keyboard.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Yay school's almost over for the quarter!! 8D
FINALLY!! I'm so ready for school to be done and over with. Well, at least this quarter. I'm sick of all the papers I have to write, I'm sick of waking up early in the morning (I'm not a morning person at all). Anyways, I still need to sign up for my classes for next quarter. I want to wait and see what grades I have so I don't sign up for the wrong classes or whatever. I still need to see my adviser and honestly, I'm scared of her. I've met her in person once but from what her emails were like and even how she was towards me when we met she seemed kind of rude. She seemed to cut me off when I tried talking to her and she never told me what I needed to do for my major. She just suggested some classes for me that I should take for winter quarter and that was it. She didn't mention the rest of the classes I should take for the future or whatever. I need to switch advisers or something.
Halloween just happened a few days ago. It was beyond boring for me. I did nothing except read a little bit and pass out candy to the kids. I don't see what's so great about Halloween... I think it's one of the holidays I can live with out.
Apparently, I need to write a paper for my regional studies class which I had no idea we had to. I need to come up with a topic soon. I don't think he even mentioned anything about the paper. I know that we have to write about something current in the Middle East(at least I think we do) but that's about it. I also need to write my English paper as well as rewrite my comparative studies paper. It's pretty interesting because I'm writing about Japanese fashion, which I'm really interested in.
Errr, that's it for now. I'm tired and bored.
Halloween just happened a few days ago. It was beyond boring for me. I did nothing except read a little bit and pass out candy to the kids. I don't see what's so great about Halloween... I think it's one of the holidays I can live with out.
Apparently, I need to write a paper for my regional studies class which I had no idea we had to. I need to come up with a topic soon. I don't think he even mentioned anything about the paper. I know that we have to write about something current in the Middle East(at least I think we do) but that's about it. I also need to write my English paper as well as rewrite my comparative studies paper. It's pretty interesting because I'm writing about Japanese fashion, which I'm really interested in.
Errr, that's it for now. I'm tired and bored.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
The last of my birthday gifts :D
Sooo, I totally forgot to post some pics of the last of my birthday gifts!! We had to reorder them again because for some reason, they didn't send my mom the request to pay with Pay Pal. Anyways, I looooove cute things. Always. I've loved everything Sanrio ever since I was little. Later, my sister showed me San-X. Like Sanrio, San-X has looooads of cute little animals. I think they only have animals... Well, they also have a sweet shop thing too... Anyways, I instantly fell in love with lots of the characters!! I looove Rilakkuma, Mamegoma, Homecoro, Nyan Nyan Nyanko, and Monokuro Boo :D So anyway, back to my presents, my mom ordered me some San-X stuff for my birthday!! I got a Rilakkuma Ipod/cell phone holder, Rilakkuma bento box, and a Mamegoma bento bag. They're all soooo cute!! They also gave me a free Monokuro Boo pin, which my sister was beyond jealous of because she loves those pigs XP
PICS!! 8D
:DDD
Oh and my parents bought some of this Hello Kitty milk flavored candy at the commissary a week or two ago. The candy was ok, it tasted kind of like vanilla flavored Tootsie Rolls, but different all at the same time. It's hard to explain the taste XD Anyway, the packaging is really cute, so I just had to take a few pics :3
Grr, Blogger pics don't do any of the pics I took justice especially when it comes to pics of my doll... D:
PICS!! 8D
:DDD
Oh and my parents bought some of this Hello Kitty milk flavored candy at the commissary a week or two ago. The candy was ok, it tasted kind of like vanilla flavored Tootsie Rolls, but different all at the same time. It's hard to explain the taste XD Anyway, the packaging is really cute, so I just had to take a few pics :3
Grr, Blogger pics don't do any of the pics I took justice especially when it comes to pics of my doll... D:
Monday, October 5, 2009
I love finding random things!!
On Friday, my mom and I went to Half Priced Books, a pretty awesome bookstore that has new and used books for much less than regular bookstore prices. It's kind of like a thrift store though, I can never find exactly what I'm looking for all the time, but sometimes I can find some pretty awesome things. Like on Friday for example, I was just browsing through the foreign language section, because sometimes they have some actual reading books in a particular foreign language, and when I looked in the Japanese section, I found four, yes FOUR copies of the original Sailor Moon manga in JAPANESE!!! Yes, friggin' JAPANESE and in MINT CONDISH!! 8DDDD I couldn't believe it. These books were in pristine condition and even though it wasn't the first four volumes(they were vol. 6,7,8 and 18-the very last one), it was still an amazingly AWESOME find!! I LOOOOVE Sailor Moon, especially when I was little. I always wanted to be a Sailor Scout and I had sooo much stuff, I still have a lot of it left: dolls, trading cards, playing cards, some weird Pokemon based card game thing, some weird real life RPG game book thing this lady from Make a Wish gave me when my sister had cancer, posters I got for Christmas one year and one that my sister gave me, movies, alarm clock, etc. The only thing I don't have is my Sailor Jupiter costume my mom made me for Halloween when I was around 7 or 8. It's sad because my mom did a REALLY, REALLY good job on it- better than a lot what those cosplayers make. I suppose the pattern for the costume was rare, at least for the fabric stores around us. I should post a pic sometime :D Oh, when I was about 12, there was this really cool small store in California called Dance 'n Things and they had loads, and I mean LOADS of Sanrio stuff!! Really good, rare things and they also had some other random stuff. There I found two Sailor Moon paper dolls!! They were from Japan, still had the Japanese writing on it and they were two different sets of paper dolls. I still have them :D and I still can't believe I found something that random and rare in a store like that.
Back to Half Priced Books, my mom also found the first 6 volumes of Vampire Knight(ok, it's not rare exactly, but it's rare to find ALL six volumes together in one HPB store) for only 2 dollars each. I can't believe it because they were all in extremely good condition, read maybe once or twice...
Also a while back, my mom, sister, and I were at HPB in Cincinnati and I found the last Harry Potter book in German. It was the only copy they had in the foreign language section. I was sooo excited!! The book's not in the greatest condition, but I love looking through it and trying to figure out all the words that I know :3 I'm such a dork for foreign language stuff, I love it :D
Speaking of foreign languages, I was in the college of lib. arts at school today, waiting for my conference with my English teacher and while I was waiting, I walked around and I saw a small display case about TESOL and TEFL. My face seriously lit up when I saw it because I want a TEFL degree thing. They offer TEFL classes in the summer apparently and you can also teach ESL in Japan or teach it in some Korean university. JACKPOT!!! OHHH my goodness, that's exactly what I want to do is teach ESL in Japan and/or Korea!! 8DDDDDD I couldn't stop staring at it and smiling like a dork XD
Totally off topic now, I'm thinking on changing my doll's name to Sophie Noel or just Sophie. I dunno what I wanna do!! DX Oh, for my birthday, I got a new wig, new eyes, and shoes for her!! She finally has shoes!! Yay!! The wig is really cute, it's a chestnut brown bob. Her new eyes look gorgey with the hair; they're a light blue color and her shoes are white gladiator style sandals. They look really cute with her dress. I really wanna take her outside since it's beautiful out today :3
PIC SPAM:
Here's Noel in her new wig and eyes!! :D
:3
...Shoes...Shoes...Let's get some shoes!! XDDD
Her wig made me think of Yuna from FFX so I used the green eye I already had with her new blue eye :D I think the green one needs to be lighter, but oh well... Now if only I could get her a Yuna costume!! 8D
Another "Yuna" pic XD
Irish dancer!! I found one soft shoe in one of my caboodle thingies and I put it on her one day and it fit perfectly!! Then a few weeks ago while I was digging through an old backpack, I found another one I thought I lost a long time ago!! Now she has two soft shoes :] Woot!!
Sailor Moon manga :D
Back to Half Priced Books, my mom also found the first 6 volumes of Vampire Knight(ok, it's not rare exactly, but it's rare to find ALL six volumes together in one HPB store) for only 2 dollars each. I can't believe it because they were all in extremely good condition, read maybe once or twice...
Also a while back, my mom, sister, and I were at HPB in Cincinnati and I found the last Harry Potter book in German. It was the only copy they had in the foreign language section. I was sooo excited!! The book's not in the greatest condition, but I love looking through it and trying to figure out all the words that I know :3 I'm such a dork for foreign language stuff, I love it :D
Speaking of foreign languages, I was in the college of lib. arts at school today, waiting for my conference with my English teacher and while I was waiting, I walked around and I saw a small display case about TESOL and TEFL. My face seriously lit up when I saw it because I want a TEFL degree thing. They offer TEFL classes in the summer apparently and you can also teach ESL in Japan or teach it in some Korean university. JACKPOT!!! OHHH my goodness, that's exactly what I want to do is teach ESL in Japan and/or Korea!! 8DDDDDD I couldn't stop staring at it and smiling like a dork XD
Totally off topic now, I'm thinking on changing my doll's name to Sophie Noel or just Sophie. I dunno what I wanna do!! DX Oh, for my birthday, I got a new wig, new eyes, and shoes for her!! She finally has shoes!! Yay!! The wig is really cute, it's a chestnut brown bob. Her new eyes look gorgey with the hair; they're a light blue color and her shoes are white gladiator style sandals. They look really cute with her dress. I really wanna take her outside since it's beautiful out today :3
PIC SPAM:
Here's Noel in her new wig and eyes!! :D
:3
...Shoes...Shoes...Let's get some shoes!! XDDD
Her wig made me think of Yuna from FFX so I used the green eye I already had with her new blue eye :D I think the green one needs to be lighter, but oh well... Now if only I could get her a Yuna costume!! 8D
Another "Yuna" pic XD
Irish dancer!! I found one soft shoe in one of my caboodle thingies and I put it on her one day and it fit perfectly!! Then a few weeks ago while I was digging through an old backpack, I found another one I thought I lost a long time ago!! Now she has two soft shoes :] Woot!!
Sailor Moon manga :D
Monday, September 21, 2009
Ummm, blah.
Today's kinda been...ugh. I was so tired this morning that I almost fell asleep in my CST class; I kept closing my eyes and lowering my head. It was so hard to pay attention. Today's kind of a depressing day, both the weather and me. Well, I keep feeling really sad one minute, then ok or happy the next. Now I'm at the sad part :\ Anyways, I better not get too attached to liking my English professor... I don't want to like him too much, but I just can't help it!! He seems really...sweet..?? kekekeke XD Well, I don't wanna talk about him too much right now :| Ok, since I'm bored, it's survey time!! :D
Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point, and isn't around now?
If you mean they died, then yeah, I'd say so. Also someone who is alive... :\ Need to move on from that...
What are you doing right now?
Sitting on my bed, thinking about people and relationships sorta
What do you do when you're having a bad day?
Listen to music, draw, throw a few things around(in my room keke)
Where is your biological mother right now?
Here, sleeping in her room.
Is there anyone who you want to come see you right now?
Yeah, lots of people :D
Have you ever thrown your iPod in anger?
Yeah, I threw mine today, actually.
When was the last time you cried really hard?
Not in awhile. I feel one coming up... :[
Have you ever gotten body painted?
Uh, no
What was the last thing that scared you?
When I had that extreme stomach cramp/ throwing up episode a few days ago...
Why did you last cry?
Because I'm sick of thinking about this person and I want to move on, but I can't. I don't want to see him with someone else, when it could be me. Lame, I know... XD
What are you wearing on your feet?
They're in the nuddy pants right now!! :D
Let's test your memory, what were you doing at this moment a year ago?
Probably doing the same thing.
Who did you last call sexy?
Nobody.
Have you ever held hands with the opposite sex?
aklsaklds :[
Do you smoke weed everyday?
No, I've never smoked weed...
Do you always answer your phone?
No.
When was the last time you went to the circus?
I don't think I've ever been to the circus
Do you ever think about stuff and start crying?
Yeah, a lot ;_;
If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?
Fall!!
Do you like the snow?
I like it for a little bit, then I'm sick of it. I hate driving in the snow. It scares me!!
What is bothering you right now?
People and stuff like that
Have you ever liked someone older than you?
x3
Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
Nope
Are you happy?
I have my ups and downs.
Who was the last person to call you?
My mom
Do you have a favorite number?
Ummm... I've always liked 3 and 10, I guess. Especially 10. I don't know why...
Are you multi-tasking right now?
Nooo
Who is the last person you got a text from?
My sister, I think.
Does anything on your body hurt?
Every part of me is somewhat achy. My wrist from not moving it often, my bummoley, my back sorta, my legs from having them stretched out on my bed, and my right shoulder from carrying my bookbag all day.
Is there anything on your walls?
Posters of Super Junior, DBSK, and Vampire Knight. Domo-kun calendar!! :D
Are you wearing a hoodie? If so, what color?
Actually, I am!! It's a grey hoodie..
What's on your mind?
a lot of things
Do you miss anyone?
I try not to think about it.
Who haven't you seen in forever?
slfkaslfskldm :\
Did you have a dream last night?
I did, but I don't remember what it was. I had another dream today and my mom was in there and she kept annoying me when I was on a date or something like that.
What is the most irritating thing?
Nobody listening to me.
Where's your phone right now?
on my bed
How are you feeling?
Tired
Are you a patient person?
I think I am, sometimes I'm not though.
What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
Gum.
Has anyone said they love you in the last week?
My parents...:]
Do you get along with guys?
For the most part, yeah. I don't talk to them a whole lot, but when I do, I think it's pretty easy to talk to them.
Are there any bruises on your body?
My knee.
Who was the last person to seriously let you down?
Yudi.
Do you ever listen to country music?
very rarely
This time last year were you single?
Yes
Where was the last place you bought something?
At school, buying lunch.
This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
I don't think I really liked anybody.
Who was the first person you talked to today?
Mutti!!
You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it?
water
Are you anything like you were at this point last year?
No, not really.
When's the last time you talked with the opposite sex on the phone?
Does my dad count...??
Do you think you are a good person?
No, I'm trying harder now.
Do you usually have weird dreams?
Oh yes, I do.
Does anyone hate you for no reason?
Probably. I've had it happen before when I danced competitively...
How many hours of sleep did you get yesterday?
I'm not sure.. Not enough.
Do you think you would make a good parent?
I hope so :]
Are you an argumentative person?
OH YES. I argue all the time with my family. They're more like debate type arguments more so than, "I hate you" or something like that...
Has a boy/girl ever called you babe or baby?
Maybe when I was at a club, I don't remember, nor do I want to remember.
Are you wearing any clothes that don't belong to you?
No, I wear all my clothes. Nobody I know has a similar size as me(I'm not huge, it's just my friends are either too skinny or too fat)
Is there someone you can talk to about anything?
*shrugs*
Who's in your profile picture with you?
a silent film star :]
Is love really worth fighting for?
I like to believe that, but I don't know if it's entirely true.
Is there someone you will always be attracted to?
Most likely. That's why I want to get over this one guy.
When was the last time a person of the opposite sex hugged you ?
My dad yesterday :|...:]
Whats the biggest promise someone broke with you?
None that I can think of.
Do you have an attitude?
Yeah, but I'm trying to change that.
How many kids do you want to have?
2
What song are you listening to ?
None right now, but I was listening to Epik High's song, One.
What does the song you're listening to remind you of?
Whenever I'm feeling down, I know I can make it through. The song itself is basically about wanting to commit suicide and getting through it, knowing that there's someone out there who does care for you no matter what.
Did you lie on any of these questions so far?
No.
If you married the last person that texted you what would your kids be like?
Uh, I don't want to think about that!! DDDDX
Do you know anyone named Matt?
Yeah, a few.
What smiley face do you use often?
:D XD :3 D: DX :] :[ ;_; :| :\ x3 8D Yeah, I love using smilies!! :D
Honestly, have you ever eaten raw cookie dough?
YES 8D
Is there a difference between the word 'best friend' and 'friend'?
Yeah, but I don't consider any of my friends a best friend.
Who is your celebrity crush?
EUNHYUK!!!! Almost all of Suju, Daniel Henney, Anthony Padilla(ok, not a *real* celeb, but he is on Youtube!!), DANIEL RADCLIFFE!!
Do you take walks often?
Only at school when I'm walking back and forth to classes. I don't really take walks out in my neighborhood as much because supposedly there's a sex offender that lives near me DX
Is good grammar attractive?
Uh, yeah.
Are any of your friends taller than you?
Yeah...
Do you crack your knuckles?
too much
Spell your name without an L:
KOTENAY!! My name doesn't have any L's in it.
Who's the last person you talked to on the phone for over an hour?
Yudi, two years ago. I hate talking on the phone.
Did you copy and paste this survey?
Mmhmm...
How do most people spell your name?
KOTENAY!!
Do you know any people who have messed up your life?
Yeah, I guess.
Does anyone know your password besides you?
I HOPE NOT DDDD:
Have you ever gone out of your way to make someone happy?
I don't think I have.
If you had the chance to travel back in time, would you?
Yes, I would.
Are you single for the summer?
Yeah, but now it's fall. So, hopefully not for fall...?? x3
Have you ever slept on a couch with someone?
My dog, Chichi XD
Where do you wanna live when you get older?
South Korea or Japan. Maybe even Germany...
Could you date someone three years older than you ?
YES :3 *looks at Eng. teacher* AHEM!!
Do you get annoyed when you see someone you don't like?
YES.
Yay surveys!! I've got nothing else to talk about. Kbai.
Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point, and isn't around now?
If you mean they died, then yeah, I'd say so. Also someone who is alive... :\ Need to move on from that...
What are you doing right now?
Sitting on my bed, thinking about people and relationships sorta
What do you do when you're having a bad day?
Listen to music, draw, throw a few things around(in my room keke)
Where is your biological mother right now?
Here, sleeping in her room.
Is there anyone who you want to come see you right now?
Yeah, lots of people :D
Have you ever thrown your iPod in anger?
Yeah, I threw mine today, actually.
When was the last time you cried really hard?
Not in awhile. I feel one coming up... :[
Have you ever gotten body painted?
Uh, no
What was the last thing that scared you?
When I had that extreme stomach cramp/ throwing up episode a few days ago...
Why did you last cry?
Because I'm sick of thinking about this person and I want to move on, but I can't. I don't want to see him with someone else, when it could be me. Lame, I know... XD
What are you wearing on your feet?
They're in the nuddy pants right now!! :D
Let's test your memory, what were you doing at this moment a year ago?
Probably doing the same thing.
Who did you last call sexy?
Nobody.
Have you ever held hands with the opposite sex?
aklsaklds :[
Do you smoke weed everyday?
No, I've never smoked weed...
Do you always answer your phone?
No.
When was the last time you went to the circus?
I don't think I've ever been to the circus
Do you ever think about stuff and start crying?
Yeah, a lot ;_;
If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?
Fall!!
Do you like the snow?
I like it for a little bit, then I'm sick of it. I hate driving in the snow. It scares me!!
What is bothering you right now?
People and stuff like that
Have you ever liked someone older than you?
x3
Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
Nope
Are you happy?
I have my ups and downs.
Who was the last person to call you?
My mom
Do you have a favorite number?
Ummm... I've always liked 3 and 10, I guess. Especially 10. I don't know why...
Are you multi-tasking right now?
Nooo
Who is the last person you got a text from?
My sister, I think.
Does anything on your body hurt?
Every part of me is somewhat achy. My wrist from not moving it often, my bummoley, my back sorta, my legs from having them stretched out on my bed, and my right shoulder from carrying my bookbag all day.
Is there anything on your walls?
Posters of Super Junior, DBSK, and Vampire Knight. Domo-kun calendar!! :D
Are you wearing a hoodie? If so, what color?
Actually, I am!! It's a grey hoodie..
What's on your mind?
a lot of things
Do you miss anyone?
I try not to think about it.
Who haven't you seen in forever?
slfkaslfskldm :\
Did you have a dream last night?
I did, but I don't remember what it was. I had another dream today and my mom was in there and she kept annoying me when I was on a date or something like that.
What is the most irritating thing?
Nobody listening to me.
Where's your phone right now?
on my bed
How are you feeling?
Tired
Are you a patient person?
I think I am, sometimes I'm not though.
What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
Gum.
Has anyone said they love you in the last week?
My parents...:]
Do you get along with guys?
For the most part, yeah. I don't talk to them a whole lot, but when I do, I think it's pretty easy to talk to them.
Are there any bruises on your body?
My knee.
Who was the last person to seriously let you down?
Yudi.
Do you ever listen to country music?
very rarely
This time last year were you single?
Yes
Where was the last place you bought something?
At school, buying lunch.
This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
I don't think I really liked anybody.
Who was the first person you talked to today?
Mutti!!
You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it?
water
Are you anything like you were at this point last year?
No, not really.
When's the last time you talked with the opposite sex on the phone?
Does my dad count...??
Do you think you are a good person?
No, I'm trying harder now.
Do you usually have weird dreams?
Oh yes, I do.
Does anyone hate you for no reason?
Probably. I've had it happen before when I danced competitively...
How many hours of sleep did you get yesterday?
I'm not sure.. Not enough.
Do you think you would make a good parent?
I hope so :]
Are you an argumentative person?
OH YES. I argue all the time with my family. They're more like debate type arguments more so than, "I hate you" or something like that...
Has a boy/girl ever called you babe or baby?
Maybe when I was at a club, I don't remember, nor do I want to remember.
Are you wearing any clothes that don't belong to you?
No, I wear all my clothes. Nobody I know has a similar size as me(I'm not huge, it's just my friends are either too skinny or too fat)
Is there someone you can talk to about anything?
*shrugs*
Who's in your profile picture with you?
a silent film star :]
Is love really worth fighting for?
I like to believe that, but I don't know if it's entirely true.
Is there someone you will always be attracted to?
Most likely. That's why I want to get over this one guy.
When was the last time a person of the opposite sex hugged you ?
My dad yesterday :|...:]
Whats the biggest promise someone broke with you?
None that I can think of.
Do you have an attitude?
Yeah, but I'm trying to change that.
How many kids do you want to have?
2
What song are you listening to ?
None right now, but I was listening to Epik High's song, One.
What does the song you're listening to remind you of?
Whenever I'm feeling down, I know I can make it through. The song itself is basically about wanting to commit suicide and getting through it, knowing that there's someone out there who does care for you no matter what.
Did you lie on any of these questions so far?
No.
If you married the last person that texted you what would your kids be like?
Uh, I don't want to think about that!! DDDDX
Do you know anyone named Matt?
Yeah, a few.
What smiley face do you use often?
:D XD :3 D: DX :] :[ ;_; :| :\ x3 8D Yeah, I love using smilies!! :D
Honestly, have you ever eaten raw cookie dough?
YES 8D
Is there a difference between the word 'best friend' and 'friend'?
Yeah, but I don't consider any of my friends a best friend.
Who is your celebrity crush?
EUNHYUK!!!! Almost all of Suju, Daniel Henney, Anthony Padilla(ok, not a *real* celeb, but he is on Youtube!!), DANIEL RADCLIFFE!!
Do you take walks often?
Only at school when I'm walking back and forth to classes. I don't really take walks out in my neighborhood as much because supposedly there's a sex offender that lives near me DX
Is good grammar attractive?
Uh, yeah.
Are any of your friends taller than you?
Yeah...
Do you crack your knuckles?
too much
Spell your name without an L:
KOTENAY!! My name doesn't have any L's in it.
Who's the last person you talked to on the phone for over an hour?
Yudi, two years ago. I hate talking on the phone.
Did you copy and paste this survey?
Mmhmm...
How do most people spell your name?
KOTENAY!!
Do you know any people who have messed up your life?
Yeah, I guess.
Does anyone know your password besides you?
I HOPE NOT DDDD:
Have you ever gone out of your way to make someone happy?
I don't think I have.
If you had the chance to travel back in time, would you?
Yes, I would.
Are you single for the summer?
Yeah, but now it's fall. So, hopefully not for fall...?? x3
Have you ever slept on a couch with someone?
My dog, Chichi XD
Where do you wanna live when you get older?
South Korea or Japan. Maybe even Germany...
Could you date someone three years older than you ?
YES :3 *looks at Eng. teacher* AHEM!!
Do you get annoyed when you see someone you don't like?
YES.
Yay surveys!! I've got nothing else to talk about. Kbai.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
More Suju goodness :DDDD
Ahh, I love Suju M's new song and I finally found a dl link!! *dances around like crazy* So, I found this old Suju survey I did on my LJ, here it is(I modified it a lot XD):
Suju meme, oh yeah!!
1.fav member : EUNHYUK, EUNHYUK, EUNHYUK, and EUNHYUK 8D
2. (BE HONEST) yes or no: i memorized all thirteen members' names : Of course I have!! Almost all Suju fans(should) know their names XD
3. Only 13 or iLOVEhenry&zhoumi: I'm still all about only 13. I <3 Henry and Zhou Mi, but I don't get why they're in SJM if their not in the original group. SM Entertainment's weird.
4. how many pictures do you have of suju (you dont have to be exact):over 2000(not including my animated gifs folder hehe)NO JOKE XDDDD
5. have you ever switched favorite members?(be specific who):Yes. Kibum, Heechul, then Eunhyuk
6. cutest member: Eunhyuk, Sungmin, Donghae. Well, Sungmin's more, "d'aww he's so adorable!!" while Eunhyuk and Donghae are more cute like little kid cute.
7 hottest member: hmmm, Siwon, Donghae, HANKYUNG, and Kyuhyun.
(for eight they all need to be different and i know its hard but only one)
8a.member you would like to marry: right now it's Eunhyuk :] Maybe Siwon because he's very handsome kekeke...or maybe Hankyung because he's so sweet and just seems like such a nice guy. I liked him even more after the Super Girl video X3
8b. member you would like to date: Donghae, Eunhyuk, Siwon, Hankyung...Oh man...
8c. member you would like as a best friend: Shindong because he's a goof and I like guys who like to be goofy and funny a lot.
8d.member you would like as a pet&what animal: Umm... Sungmin. He seems like he'd be a friendly and adorable pet. I'd pet him all the time lol OH SNAP!!
9.prettiest member: I think it's Ryeowook. He looks very feminine and always looks very clean and dresses nice
10.best singer: Kyuhyun. HANDS DOWN.
numbers11~17 new by kehleejay
11.member you think deserves more love than they get: YESUNG. For god's sake, give Yesung some love!! He's one of the best singers in the group and can be really cute, the guy deserves more credit!! I always feel bad for him because he always tries to draw attention to himself, but it almost always fails!! Poor Yesung :[ kekeke
12.member you think is most like yourself: Umm, I'd say Eunhyuk...or Shindong(minus the weight)
13.member you find yourself jealous of all the time and why: Kyuhyun because of his voice.
14.best dressed member:ummm... Hankyung, Siwon, Ryeowook, and Leeteuk. Eunhyuk used to be on this list, now he wears those weird 80's like clothes. Like with the tight brightly colored or weird patterned jeans and stuff like that... Boo :\
15.funniest member: Uhhh, they all have their funny moments hehehe :3
16.weirdest couple(between the members): Anything that involves Shindong... Any ship that involves members that aren't really close to eachother(i.e: Kibum and Kangin)
17.OTP(between the members): Eunhae, Eunmin, Yewook, Eunteuk, Kangmin, Dongwon, Hankwon. Yeah that's not really OTP, but yeah... XD
Suju meme, oh yeah!!
1.fav member : EUNHYUK, EUNHYUK, EUNHYUK, and EUNHYUK 8D
2. (BE HONEST) yes or no: i memorized all thirteen members' names : Of course I have!! Almost all Suju fans(should) know their names XD
3. Only 13 or iLOVEhenry&zhoumi: I'm still all about only 13. I <3 Henry and Zhou Mi, but I don't get why they're in SJM if their not in the original group. SM Entertainment's weird.
4. how many pictures do you have of suju (you dont have to be exact):over 2000(not including my animated gifs folder hehe)NO JOKE XDDDD
5. have you ever switched favorite members?(be specific who):Yes. Kibum, Heechul, then Eunhyuk
6. cutest member: Eunhyuk, Sungmin, Donghae. Well, Sungmin's more, "d'aww he's so adorable!!" while Eunhyuk and Donghae are more cute like little kid cute.
7 hottest member: hmmm, Siwon, Donghae, HANKYUNG, and Kyuhyun.
(for eight they all need to be different and i know its hard but only one)
8a.member you would like to marry: right now it's Eunhyuk :] Maybe Siwon because he's very handsome kekeke...or maybe Hankyung because he's so sweet and just seems like such a nice guy. I liked him even more after the Super Girl video X3
8b. member you would like to date: Donghae, Eunhyuk, Siwon, Hankyung...Oh man...
8c. member you would like as a best friend: Shindong because he's a goof and I like guys who like to be goofy and funny a lot.
8d.member you would like as a pet&what animal: Umm... Sungmin. He seems like he'd be a friendly and adorable pet. I'd pet him all the time lol OH SNAP!!
9.prettiest member: I think it's Ryeowook. He looks very feminine and always looks very clean and dresses nice
10.best singer: Kyuhyun. HANDS DOWN.
numbers11~17 new by kehleejay
11.member you think deserves more love than they get: YESUNG. For god's sake, give Yesung some love!! He's one of the best singers in the group and can be really cute, the guy deserves more credit!! I always feel bad for him because he always tries to draw attention to himself, but it almost always fails!! Poor Yesung :[ kekeke
12.member you think is most like yourself: Umm, I'd say Eunhyuk...or Shindong(minus the weight)
13.member you find yourself jealous of all the time and why: Kyuhyun because of his voice.
14.best dressed member:ummm... Hankyung, Siwon, Ryeowook, and Leeteuk. Eunhyuk used to be on this list, now he wears those weird 80's like clothes. Like with the tight brightly colored or weird patterned jeans and stuff like that... Boo :\
15.funniest member: Uhhh, they all have their funny moments hehehe :3
16.weirdest couple(between the members): Anything that involves Shindong... Any ship that involves members that aren't really close to eachother(i.e: Kibum and Kangin)
17.OTP(between the members): Eunhae, Eunmin, Yewook, Eunteuk, Kangmin, Dongwon, Hankwon. Yeah that's not really OTP, but yeah... XD
Yesterday
Oh my god, so yesterday, "you know" started and I felt terrible. My stomach felt like it was twisting up in knots, so I took some Midol. Only one though, because that stuff is strong. I then ate some Fritos and some spicy cheesy dip that my dad makes a lot so that way I could eat some food and the Midol wouldn't bug me as much. FALSE(lol Dwight from the Office...). I felt even worse. It felt like someone was just standing on my stomach and inner thighs and jumping up and down. It was terrible. I would feel alright for one minute, then extreme pain the next. I was also freaking out because a friend on CR told me a fellow Suju fan died from stomach cancer and my dad was mentioning the swine flu when I said I was feeling sick and nauseous. Soon, the caffeine from the Midol stated to kick in. I do NOT do well with caffeine because it makes me shake like crazy and my whole body just goes nuts D: So with the initial cramps I had, plus the cramps Midol gave me for not eating enough food, and the caffeine all mixed in one was just TOO much. It felt like I was having a panic attack and I was so nauseous.
I kept feeling like I was going to throw up, so I would sit in the bathroom and wait. Nothing would happen except that I would hiccup a lot. Soon after that, my body got into a cold sweat and I was hot and cold at the same time. It was so hot that I wanted to take my clothes off, but I was so cold that I wanted to put more on. My mom kept telling me to relax and find something to eat. I couldn't do either of them so the first thing that popped into my head was that I wanted my dad to make me some oatmeal(the way he makes it is very good and always makes me feel better).
So after awhile, he finally got started on making the oatmeal and I was still in pain. I kept tossing and turning on the sofa; my body was sweating like crazy, but I was extremely cold. I stood up and walked in the kitchen and got some water. After I drank a few sips of water, I suddenly felt really nauseous. I walked to the bathroom and tried to throw up. First, nothing came out, as usual, just some hiccups and then I just kinda tried to gag myself(with out putting my fingers or something else in my mouth. Hard for me to explain...)and eventually, a little bit came out. I felt just a teensy, tiny bit better and I walked back to the kitchen. My dad finished making the oatmeal and set it out on the table. I ate like, one or two bites. I couldn't make it go down my throat. I decided to drink some more water so that I could maybe throw up some more and then I would hopefully feel better. It worked because I then had to go to the bathroom and throw up again. Then, I told my mom what happened again and she asked if I was ok or something like that. I mumbled something and then ran back to the bathroom. This time, a lot came out. Ok, that's totally nasty, but still...
After that, I felt a little bit better and I sat down and tried to eat the oatmeal again. I still couldn't eat it and told my dad that I couldn't. I felt bad for not eating it, but I imagine that he understood that I wasn't feeling well. He then made me some Jello. I hate Jello, but I wanted to eat something. So anyways, I eventually started feeling much better, but I was still uber dizzy whenever I would stand up or move my head. It was very scary and I'm so thankful that I didn't feel that way today :] My stomach feels a little gurgley and slight cramps, but nothing like yesterday at all.
I kept feeling like I was going to throw up, so I would sit in the bathroom and wait. Nothing would happen except that I would hiccup a lot. Soon after that, my body got into a cold sweat and I was hot and cold at the same time. It was so hot that I wanted to take my clothes off, but I was so cold that I wanted to put more on. My mom kept telling me to relax and find something to eat. I couldn't do either of them so the first thing that popped into my head was that I wanted my dad to make me some oatmeal(the way he makes it is very good and always makes me feel better).
So after awhile, he finally got started on making the oatmeal and I was still in pain. I kept tossing and turning on the sofa; my body was sweating like crazy, but I was extremely cold. I stood up and walked in the kitchen and got some water. After I drank a few sips of water, I suddenly felt really nauseous. I walked to the bathroom and tried to throw up. First, nothing came out, as usual, just some hiccups and then I just kinda tried to gag myself(with out putting my fingers or something else in my mouth. Hard for me to explain...)and eventually, a little bit came out. I felt just a teensy, tiny bit better and I walked back to the kitchen. My dad finished making the oatmeal and set it out on the table. I ate like, one or two bites. I couldn't make it go down my throat. I decided to drink some more water so that I could maybe throw up some more and then I would hopefully feel better. It worked because I then had to go to the bathroom and throw up again. Then, I told my mom what happened again and she asked if I was ok or something like that. I mumbled something and then ran back to the bathroom. This time, a lot came out. Ok, that's totally nasty, but still...
After that, I felt a little bit better and I sat down and tried to eat the oatmeal again. I still couldn't eat it and told my dad that I couldn't. I felt bad for not eating it, but I imagine that he understood that I wasn't feeling well. He then made me some Jello. I hate Jello, but I wanted to eat something. So anyways, I eventually started feeling much better, but I was still uber dizzy whenever I would stand up or move my head. It was very scary and I'm so thankful that I didn't feel that way today :] My stomach feels a little gurgley and slight cramps, but nothing like yesterday at all.
Monday, September 14, 2009
OHHHHH MYYYY GOOODNESSSS!!!!
SUJU M HAS MADE A COMEBACK!! OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!! *sigh* They're new song is super catchy and Hankyung looks sooo cute in this video, I love his nerd look :DDDD I really don't like the fact that they put Jessica from SNSD in the video, only to enhance her shallowness(she turns down Hankyung because he looks dorky and so he changes his look and then, and only then she wants to be with him. TWU WUB!! *gag*) Ok, I guess you could tell that I don't like SNSD, particularly Jessica or Tiffany. Well, as long as they didn't use Tiffany in the video, I guess it's ok XD Yeah, I'm a total Suju fangirl, what can I say?? I love the fact that the say "shyupah" kekekeke x3
So I can watch it whenever I'm on here :DDDD
So I can watch it whenever I'm on here :DDDD
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
It's 6 in the flippin' morning. No sleep. First day of school today.
WLEMWLAMALFMDLSFMDSLGMDSGJ!!! Why did I decide to pull an all nighter?!!? OMG I'm so tired, but now it's too late to fall asleep because I have to wake up in less than 45 minutes to get ready for school DDDD: I'm not one who needs just a simple power nap and I'll be good to go. Oh no, I need a full 8+ hours of sleep in order to not feel extremely tired or cranky when I wake up. I don't want to go out of my room because I don't want my parents to know I pulled an all nighter... Oh man, I can't wait to get home from school and fall asleep!! Good thing that it's only the first day of classes, because I would be even more screwed if we really had to focus on lectures or tests... LSDKLSMDLSWDOEFL!!!
Buuuut, my birtday's coming up soon!! I can't wait!! I'm only gonna be 21, but I already feel old... I never really did anything in my life that was meaningful, minus Irish dance. That was pretty much the only thing I ever really did that was interesting. I never participated in any extra curricular activities at school, participate in talent shows, except when I was like, in the 2nd grade. It was the stupidest thing ever. I don't know why I even agreed to dance the macarena to a friggin' BEATLES SONG DDDD: Anyways, I never was in any clubs or went to school dances(in high school, but I did go to 2 at St. Lukes, those don't really count...), I never did anything to stand out and really be myself, I only did things that would make me blend in with others(for the most part). I don't have a job right now and my academic career dropped like a lead balloon... I don't even know what I want to do in the future now. I've been wanting to teach ESL, but I'm not sure if I still want to do that. I just wanted to teach ESL so I could go to Japan or even Korea kekekke XDD I just want to do something different for a change, do something meaningful, but I'm always too afraid of people judging me... Bad thoughts, but I can't help them... :[
Ahh, listening to Super Junior always makes me feel better :] Blargh, I blame Yudi for introducing me to them. Ever since then, I've been obsessed with them!! D: kekekeke :3 More about them later... :O
I'm pretty nervous about my German class, I don't really remember a whole lot from this past year... I'm screwed DX I hope that my other classes go well and that I have decent professors. I also have a new professor for German(I had my other for 2 quarters), so I hope she's nice. I doubt that she'd be as awesome as my other prof. but I just don't want a bitchy teacher... lbgdsfladsflds Whatever...
6:26 right now.... UGH. No more all nighters unless I'm 100% NOT tired. I can't wait to get something to eat, I'm so hungry.
Buuuut, my birtday's coming up soon!! I can't wait!! I'm only gonna be 21, but I already feel old... I never really did anything in my life that was meaningful, minus Irish dance. That was pretty much the only thing I ever really did that was interesting. I never participated in any extra curricular activities at school, participate in talent shows, except when I was like, in the 2nd grade. It was the stupidest thing ever. I don't know why I even agreed to dance the macarena to a friggin' BEATLES SONG DDDD: Anyways, I never was in any clubs or went to school dances(in high school, but I did go to 2 at St. Lukes, those don't really count...), I never did anything to stand out and really be myself, I only did things that would make me blend in with others(for the most part). I don't have a job right now and my academic career dropped like a lead balloon... I don't even know what I want to do in the future now. I've been wanting to teach ESL, but I'm not sure if I still want to do that. I just wanted to teach ESL so I could go to Japan or even Korea kekekke XDD I just want to do something different for a change, do something meaningful, but I'm always too afraid of people judging me... Bad thoughts, but I can't help them... :[
Ahh, listening to Super Junior always makes me feel better :] Blargh, I blame Yudi for introducing me to them. Ever since then, I've been obsessed with them!! D: kekekeke :3 More about them later... :O
I'm pretty nervous about my German class, I don't really remember a whole lot from this past year... I'm screwed DX I hope that my other classes go well and that I have decent professors. I also have a new professor for German(I had my other for 2 quarters), so I hope she's nice. I doubt that she'd be as awesome as my other prof. but I just don't want a bitchy teacher... lbgdsfladsflds Whatever...
6:26 right now.... UGH. No more all nighters unless I'm 100% NOT tired. I can't wait to get something to eat, I'm so hungry.
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Some dollie pics :D
Ok, long time no update. I feel too lazy to post pics on here. Mostly because my camera makes the pictures ginormous and I hate having to resize them all the time D: I'll just post the pics anyways, I guess :3
A close up of her face :D
Noel with the extra eyes and hair Dollmore gave me as a free gift!! Ignore the messy dresser and the Suju M poster XD
Here she is with my dog, Chi Chi. Chi Chi was(and still is) very scared of her XDDD
A close up of her face :D
Noel with the extra eyes and hair Dollmore gave me as a free gift!! Ignore the messy dresser and the Suju M poster XD
Here she is with my dog, Chi Chi. Chi Chi was(and still is) very scared of her XDDD
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Time to talk about my dollie!! :D Part 2
Unfortunately, I had to get a Paypal account, which I didn't have and had no clue what to do. So then I had to make an online bank account in order to make the Paypal account work. Well, I didn't know my account number so after long hours of searching, I found it. I then did all the doohickeys I was supposed to do and final paid for my order. That took about a day or two, which was agonizing because I wanted to pay for her as soon as possible!!
I then had to wait a few weeks when finally they shipped her out. I looked on the tracking every single day and almost every single hour. It took about 2 days for her to be shipped out to the air port in Korea, then about 3 days for her to come to the US, and about a day or so to get to my house. At first, I was really mad because I figured that she would come Monday instead of Friday or Saturday(I thought they would've came by then). But suddenly on Sunday(YES, Sunday!!), a mail truck came and my mom shouted for me and told me the mail man's here. I ran downstairs and saw my dad outside with the mailman and he gave him the package. My doll was here!! I opened the garage door and took my doll from my dad and ran back inside. I set the box on the dining table and I was shaking like crazy!!
Opening everything was very tedious, but worth it because Chami was sooo lovely!! She came with the wig and eyes I requested already on her and some undies. I then put her outfit on her and she looked so cute!! It was hard to handle her at first(and still is) because I felt so clumsy holding her.
At first, my mom called her Saoirse even before I got her, but I didn't really like that name for her so I spent the next few days coming up with a name. I looked at some baby naming sites and tried to find a good name. I then came to the conclusion that I wanted her to have a French sounding name and I really liked the name Noel for her. My sister had a book of French baby names where I found "Elodie." I liked that name as well for her so she's now "Elodie Noel" but I just call her Noel... sometimes Elodie...sometimes both XDD
Anyways, she's just beautiful looking and I love taking pictures of her, especially her face(mostly because I'm not good at coming up with unique poses). I hope to get a few more in the future, but that's if I actually get a JOB!! Not have to resort to....ugh, I don't wanna think about it. I'm gonna have to pay all that back in the not too distant future DDD: Well, I'm happy with her presently, so that's all that matters :3
Pics next post X3
I then had to wait a few weeks when finally they shipped her out. I looked on the tracking every single day and almost every single hour. It took about 2 days for her to be shipped out to the air port in Korea, then about 3 days for her to come to the US, and about a day or so to get to my house. At first, I was really mad because I figured that she would come Monday instead of Friday or Saturday(I thought they would've came by then). But suddenly on Sunday(YES, Sunday!!), a mail truck came and my mom shouted for me and told me the mail man's here. I ran downstairs and saw my dad outside with the mailman and he gave him the package. My doll was here!! I opened the garage door and took my doll from my dad and ran back inside. I set the box on the dining table and I was shaking like crazy!!
Opening everything was very tedious, but worth it because Chami was sooo lovely!! She came with the wig and eyes I requested already on her and some undies. I then put her outfit on her and she looked so cute!! It was hard to handle her at first(and still is) because I felt so clumsy holding her.
At first, my mom called her Saoirse even before I got her, but I didn't really like that name for her so I spent the next few days coming up with a name. I looked at some baby naming sites and tried to find a good name. I then came to the conclusion that I wanted her to have a French sounding name and I really liked the name Noel for her. My sister had a book of French baby names where I found "Elodie." I liked that name as well for her so she's now "Elodie Noel" but I just call her Noel... sometimes Elodie...sometimes both XDD
Anyways, she's just beautiful looking and I love taking pictures of her, especially her face(mostly because I'm not good at coming up with unique poses). I hope to get a few more in the future, but that's if I actually get a JOB!! Not have to resort to....ugh, I don't wanna think about it. I'm gonna have to pay all that back in the not too distant future DDD: Well, I'm happy with her presently, so that's all that matters :3
Pics next post X3
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Time to talk about my dollie!! :D Part 1
Well, I haven't done this on my LJ yet, so I figured I'd do it here... To anyone who ever reads this(....anybody??? *sniffle*) Aw, I don't care. Maybe for my future self...?? Ok, so anywho, I need to talk about my lurrrvely BJD.
I've always wanted an ABJD(Asian ball-jointed doll) ever since I saw one on this one girl's website where she made pixel dolls. Ah, I remember those days when that was really big. Ok so anyways, she made some of her base dolls look like Dollfies. I was curious about them so I looked them up online and I instantly fell in love. These dolls were so awesome!! You could actually customize them yourself into pretty much anything you wanted!! You can change their hair, eyes, make-up, paint their nails, give them tattoos, give them piercings, anything!! I wanted one so badly, but they're ridiculously expensive.
So after years of losing interest, then gaining interest in them, over and over again, I told my mom about them. I showed her a website called Dollmore(where I got mine!! :3), and she really liked them too. She asked me all sorts of questions about them and we looked at all sorts of different dolls. So then, I thought it would be a perfect oppurtunity to convince my mom to let me buy one. At first, it didn't work out. She would just smile and nod whenever I mentioned them. After school ended for summer, I told my mom again that I wanted one. She then asked how much they costed and I told her. She said, "Oh, well that's not as bad as I thought," and then told me that I should buy one. I was like, "WHHHAAAT!!?" buuut thinking that of course kekekkeke XD I was afraid to buy her because the only way of paying for her was...oh I don't wanna say it(it's not like THAT sickos!!).
In early July, my mom and dad went to northern OH to visit boring geneology stuff for her birthday when I decided that I was gonna buy a doll!! My mom called for...something...I can't remember, but anyways, before she hung up, I said, "Mom?? I was wondering if I could get a doll..."
*long pause* "Ok, but you do need to think about what you're gonna get. You can't get too much because you don't have enough money...blah blah blah" After many "I know's" and "ok's" I jumped for joy and started to decide on what doll I was going to get. It took forever because I couldn't decide what doll I wanted. So about 10 something at night(my mom called around 2 in the afternoon LOL), I finally decided which doll I wanted: a Youth Dollmore Eve named Chami. So I ordered her and after much decision making, I bought an outfit for her(a cheaper one that only costed...$16 I think.), chose the eyes and hair I wanted her to come in, and sent the order!!
I've always wanted an ABJD(Asian ball-jointed doll) ever since I saw one on this one girl's website where she made pixel dolls. Ah, I remember those days when that was really big. Ok so anyways, she made some of her base dolls look like Dollfies. I was curious about them so I looked them up online and I instantly fell in love. These dolls were so awesome!! You could actually customize them yourself into pretty much anything you wanted!! You can change their hair, eyes, make-up, paint their nails, give them tattoos, give them piercings, anything!! I wanted one so badly, but they're ridiculously expensive.
So after years of losing interest, then gaining interest in them, over and over again, I told my mom about them. I showed her a website called Dollmore(where I got mine!! :3), and she really liked them too. She asked me all sorts of questions about them and we looked at all sorts of different dolls. So then, I thought it would be a perfect oppurtunity to convince my mom to let me buy one. At first, it didn't work out. She would just smile and nod whenever I mentioned them. After school ended for summer, I told my mom again that I wanted one. She then asked how much they costed and I told her. She said, "Oh, well that's not as bad as I thought," and then told me that I should buy one. I was like, "WHHHAAAT!!?" buuut thinking that of course kekekkeke XD I was afraid to buy her because the only way of paying for her was...oh I don't wanna say it(it's not like THAT sickos!!).
In early July, my mom and dad went to northern OH to visit boring geneology stuff for her birthday when I decided that I was gonna buy a doll!! My mom called for...something...I can't remember, but anyways, before she hung up, I said, "Mom?? I was wondering if I could get a doll..."
*long pause* "Ok, but you do need to think about what you're gonna get. You can't get too much because you don't have enough money...blah blah blah" After many "I know's" and "ok's" I jumped for joy and started to decide on what doll I was going to get. It took forever because I couldn't decide what doll I wanted. So about 10 something at night(my mom called around 2 in the afternoon LOL), I finally decided which doll I wanted: a Youth Dollmore Eve named Chami. So I ordered her and after much decision making, I bought an outfit for her(a cheaper one that only costed...$16 I think.), chose the eyes and hair I wanted her to come in, and sent the order!!
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